Thursday, November 29, 2007

This is what results from an everyday conversation with Stanley

Well, several things have crossed my mind about my past interests.
1. I always fall to fast...I've gotta learn to control my emotions better- that is never their fault
2. I always hear what I want to hear- either pay attention to only the positive or only the negative; I can't integrate both
3. I honestly think my expectations are too high, relationships are work and I can't expect the guys to be doing all the work and me to be doing none. I've gotta leave my old fashioned mentality behind.
4. I've gotta prioritize all aspects of my life and STICK TO IT. Never let the boy become #1, which I do all to often.

Monday, November 26, 2007

They can't buy a break

My cousin, Stevie, used that quote on Saturday afternoon when talking about the horror show that was the Florida State Seminoles vs. Florida Gators game. For those of you who don't follow college football or more specifically my Noles, he was expressing this because we were losing, losing badly and could not seem to do anything to recover and at least muster some style points while being slaughtered.

But the quote struck seems to apply perfectly to my current relationship situation. I've been single for (in my opinion) too long and then I finally met someone who I was attracted to, could carry an intelligent conversation with, enjoyed being around and missed when we were apart, and so on a so forth. It was fun and it was going well. Then he got a new job. A great new job that has time commitments way beyond what I can even comphrend. His job is more time consuming then my doctorate program, something I never thought was possible. So in short, in this case, the timing wasn't right. We hadn't been in a "relationship" long enough to withstand not seeing eachother or talking to each other so it essentially ended. He came into my life, then the job came into his and the timing of everything plucked him back out of my life.

When it comes to my life I can't buy a break.