I want to blog. I’ve always wanted to blog. I’ve got things to say (even if they are only for my own benefit).
What I am finding is that this blog is a small example of a larger problematic pattern that occurs in my life; my inability to follow through on commitments.
While the blog is a years long example of my habit of starting and stopping things, a painful example made it’s way into my life in the way of my first postpartum half marathon (yes I had a baby, more about that in another post). I signed up for this half marathon while I was still pregnant and my baby is 7 months old. I had plenty of time to train for this race and I just didn’t.
But, I ran it anyways.
I learned a lot about my mental power and incredible body during those 13.1 miles, but I’m paying for it now. I am in so much joint pain.
This is a long way of saying, I feel pain when I’m inspired to write and I don’t do it. I feel twinges of pain when I say I’m going to do something and I can’t keep those promises to myself (or others). Lack of motivation and lack of follow through is painful; mentally, physically and emotionally/spiritually.
However, I also have a tendency to try again. Even though I’ve experienced the pain. I want to blog. So…
Let’s try this again.
